Sorryyy!

I honestly can’t believe how fast the last 4 months are gone. (How is it April?)

Everything has been going well in the pregnancy, I am now 29 weeks. So 11 weeks to go!

I have been feeling a little down today 😦 about 3 weeks ago I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes – I feel like I knew I was going to have this.

I was so upset when I was told and I was beating myself up – like why did I have those cakes, potatoes and frozen cokes? I did keep up with going to the gym though.

When I met with the specialist though he told me it was all hormonal and nothing to do with how I have been eating. I told him I was diagnosed with pcos and he did say this could be the reason why I have GD.

Anyways I am now on a healthy diet. Which is good like I have actually lost weight.

Which the doctor told me is ok.

I passed my first two blood tests and failed my last one by 1 point so when I saw the specialist he laughed when he saw my results. He was like if you were 1 point below you wouldn’t be going through any of this.

Anyways through diet I had kept my blood sugar readings quite low. I was feeling good and happy. The specialist was happy with my results and said that instead of testing every day 4 times a day I could do it every night after dinner and only 3 x a week for brekky and lunch and once a week first thing in the morning.

I was so happy.

Anyways .. Since Saturday my levels have been rising . I did have my whooping cough vaccine on Saturday so I am wondering could this be why?

Today I have decided to test 4 times

And my fasting blood sugar was good. But it’s spiked after breakfast.. and this is the same breakfast I have had every day for 3 weeks and my readings have come back low???

I want to get in touch with other people with GD cause this is really getting to me today 😦

Hi all,

I thought I would sign off with one last post before the year ends.

2018! You have been my greatest year! It’s been wonderful but also very challenging.

– I got married in April
– we honeymooned through Singapore / Thailand
– We started to try for a baby
– We received what I thought was the worst news we could ever receive – I have a polycystic ovary
– We are convinced we aren’t falling pregnant so come to terms with this
– we fall pregnant
– My dad goes in for a triple bypass ( one artery was 100% blocked and the other two were 95% blocked.)
– We find out we are having a BABY GIRL ❤️

I am super excited for what 2019 will bring for us.

In 2019 I want to leave a lot of negativity behind. I know there are people who you’re friends with but wonder why you’re friends with them? There are people who say things and I feel they say these things to actually upset you? That’s what I want to leave behind / or just find a way so I don’t let it affect me.

Anyways wherever in the world you’ll be celebrating New Years I hope you have a wonderful night ❤️ I will prob be asleep by 9 this year 😂.

What a ride!!!! But here we are.

The anxiety // the tears // the laughs.

It has definitely been a roller coaster.

Let me start from where i left off.

Sooo we find out i am pregnant and its all exciting and then you start to google.. Because i was diagnosed with PCOS and the doctor told me i would prob not fall pregnant naturally ( 2 weeks later we fall pregnant naturally)

I had to go into the doctors have a blood test & pee on their stick. Positive on the stick and then i had to wait 3 days for the blood work so through this time i was convinced i wont have any HCG levels lol.

We had to wait 3 weeks for our dating scan which were the slowest 3 weeks of my life. Throughout this time i was convinced that i was not pregnant i did not feel pregnant the only thing i could feel was i was extremely hungry and extremely tired.(Literally i as going to bed at 7:30 pm)

Dating scan rolls around i had to drink 1 litre of water before i go in and this had to be an hour before also, Can i just say it was the worst thing i have ever had to do! i had to wee 3 times before i laid down and had to pee for 10 seconds and stop. can any one do that when they’re busting?
I survived that and it was prob good as it kept my mind busy.
A couple of minutes later i am laying down and the sonographer is doing the scan, all i can think about is there is nothing in there.
I am trying to study the face of the lady doing the scan and i cannot read a thing, eventually i was like is there anything there? Where she replies yes, she showed us this little blob haha with a teeny tiny heart beat of 161 bpm I can’t believe how fast it is beating.. honestly it was beautiful. I was measuring 7 weeks 1 day (we were predicting 7 weeks 5 days, but remember my absent period so we had to remember when we were interment and predict lol)

After all of this i booked in with an Obstetrician and got the ball rolling. That afternoon when i was waiting for my husband to come home i was like i will read the report.

Everything looked good in the report but at the bottom where it says findings it says the words “Subchronic Hemetoma”with some measurements, I was like what is this? so i google … dreaded google.
The words miscarriage are popping up everywhere. so i start to panic. My husband comes home and i was a mess.
My husband told me we will call the doctor tomorrow and go from there.

I call my doctor and they are like come in and we can talk about the results…This is all good i am a little bit more calm now i was thinking i have not been spotting like all the woman posting on google so that much be a good sign.
I go to the doctors and he does not seem concerned at all he reminds me its very small and these normally resolve them selves by the first 12 weeks.
He schedules me in for 1 more scan to put my nerves at ease.

I go for my scan 2 x weeks later – anxiety is high again, i still don’t feel pregnant and i have not had any morning sickness..is this a bad sign? again google says people with morning sickness have a higher rate of a successful pregnancy. That scan also goes well I am 9 weeks 2 days but measuring 9 weeks 6 days (so back to what we originally suspected)
My hematoma is there still but this time it has grown, its 2 cms now. panic sets in

I meet my obstetrician and we discuss my pregnancy she gives me a book full of all this information and we discuss my hematoma she puts me on pelvic rest and no heavy lifting, now i am a girl who works out a lot so this had been hard for me ( i am definitely soft around the edges now).
My husband and i opt for the Harmony test which is 99.5% accurate with testing for Trisomy 21, 18 & 13 .

These results take 10 days to come back. I tried not to think about it too much. My obstetrician went away so i had to go to my GP for the results again all came back low risk.

My only symptoms have been extremely tired, hungry, sore boobs and gagging at bad smells lol – i had nausea but i was only only dry reaching, nothing was coming up, Pretty much felt hung over for 24 hours a day minus the alcohol.

Today was my 12 week scan, From my original measurements i am 12 weeks today but bub is measuring 12 weeks 5 days (which i believe it is correct lol that or my baby is going to be big)

I am so happy we made it to this point and to top it all off my Hematoma is gone! i see my obstetrician in 2 weeks so i will see if she clears me for exercise 🙂

That is all from me today – i just wanted to apologies for being absent.

❤

I can’t believe I am writing this post..

I AM PREGNANT!!!!!

Very very very early days I am only like 3 weeks. Again they cannot tell me exactly as we don’t know due to my period being absent.

The next 10 weeks will be so hard.

Let me tell you how the last few days went.

So after my acupuncture when she told me I may ovulate after. She was like get your husband to the bedroom Saturday, Sunday and Monday night.

I woke up Sunday morning and I did an ovulation test just to see if it was legit and I got two lines. The line which came up was almost as dark as the control line. I was like wow it’s worked. We went to a baptism and I was just cramping all day (but please note I have been crampy all week – I just thought it was my period) so after the baptism we went home and I did another ovulation test, again two lines.
My best friend found out she was pregnant from an ovulation test, so I thought you know what let’s just do a pregnancy test and that will just rule out pregnancy.
As I did the pregnancy test and was pottering around the bathroom while I was waiting I could not believe my eyes, the words PREGNANT came up on the screen and then 2-3 weeks showed up.
I was in so much shock my body went numb. I walked out to my husband who was watching the last lap of the Bathurst 1000 and I was like look. He turned his head went back to watching tv and then turned to me again and was like WHAT! He said it can’t be right do another test. We had another test which was another brand and the second line came up straight away. What the actual hell is going on here. We were estatic I can’t believe it.
I went to the doctors yesterday had another urine test and a blood test. So I am going back to the doctors tomorrow to get the results from the blood test and to get next steps rolling 🙂

Pray for me over the next 10 weeks. I am so nervous I hope everything is ok.

I honestly think back now thank god the doctor did not give me those ovulation tablets it’s like someone was looking out for me knowing this was going to be the path I go down.

I messaged a psychic about when she thought I would fall pregnant and she told me to do acupuncture lol – I can’t help but think this was the sign she was seeing.

Anyways I am so happy – the anxiety of the thoughts of what can happen, I swear I hope everything is ok, it’s like all these other things we have to think about.

Anyways that’s all from me today xx

I had anxiety thinking of this day. The thought of little needles being poked into my body.

I will be completely honest it wasn’t that bad haha, it stung when it went in but after that it was ok. Esp when she went on top of my right ovary. Left did not hurt at all, but when I was laying there I could feel the needle on my left side. I hope that is a good sign.

I arrived and the lady was so lovely, she asked me what my story was and I told her everything, she explained to me what was going on with my ovaries, more than what the specialist did.

It then came to the point where she asked what specialist I was seeing and when I told her she did say she has heard many women who have also had a bad experience with this doctor. She has told me not to return.
She said when we cross the path of needing to go to another specialist she will give me a referral to another specialist who is apparently lovely and shows empathy lol.

Basically I need to see the acupuncturist once a week for the next 6 weeks. I hope this brings on a period.

Pretty much what was explained to me was that ovulation tablets may not even work on me like they could but it might be straight down the IVF route.. but I will cross that bridge when I come to it.

She was honestly the first professional who also asked about my mental health – she asked and how are you coping with everything.
I thought that was so lovely.
My GP and the specialist never asked me all they did was made me feel silly for thinking something was up. Made me feel like it was not important enough to worry about yet.

Anyways lets give this alternative medicine a go 🙂
I have seen some success stories online I want to speak to some people who it has worked on.

This is a sad post guys…I might regret posting this one.

The last two weeks have been an absolute emotional roller coaster just trying to get my head around everything… and trying not to google.

I told some of my friends and family and everyone’s response was ‘don’t worry everything will be fine.
I understand that it will be fine but the waiting and what seems to 10 thousand road blocks is slowly starting to get to me.

Now this brings me to today.

I have been waiting for this appointment which seems like forever since my appointment when I found out I had polycystic right ovary.

Honesty I was so happy today arrived.. when I saw the doctor the first time he said if the provera worked (The tablet which was going to induce my period) that he would give me a tablet which would help bring on ovulation.

So I saw him today thinking that this was going to happen and it didn’t.

He said my blood work came back fine, the only thing which was brought to my attention was my egg count because it was so high. this is due to the polycystic ovary.

Basically what he wants to do is wait 3 months, see if my period comes on its own. I know I haven’t ovulated since my induced period.

I’m honestly just feeling so deflated.
I really believe no one will take me seriously until I have been trying for a year 😦

I honestly don’t know where to head now.

The doctor said he would see me again in December. I don’t know what I should do.

I don’t know why this is happening.

I honestly hate the thought that I cannot give my husband what he really wants. I know he wants me to healthy and happy but I know he wants a child..it just sucks.

I hate that I am being forced to wait now for 3 more months 😦
The waiting has for sure been the hardest.

Anyways I will end it there for today.

Heyyyyy 🙂

Today was my first ultrasound – definitely not as uncomfortable as i thought it would be.

My Uterus was in good shape, i had a lot of eggs in both ovaries.
She did say that my right ovary was Polycystic.

She checked my uterus first and told me everything is good which i was very pleased about – the lining was good too.
She then moved on to my right ovary and showed me my eggs, there was many. She then said the dreaded words it looks polycystic. Me having no idea what that meant i was worried.
She moved on to my left ovary and that one was good. It had so many more eggs on my left one and it all looked perfect.

So i promised myself i wouldn’t google PCOS too much lol
I did google it though just so i knew was it was, I now know.

Also today i had my blood test which was to test all my hormones, hopefully that will come back good also.

I see the specialist on the 11th of September, I will try and check in before the 11th but i don’t know if anything interesting will happen through this time :).

Hi Again,

I am sure you can guess from the title about what i am going to discuss today :)…This post will be all about my experience with Provera.

The doctor told me to take Provera for 5 days, 1 tablet a day.
He told me if my period comes that’s a good sign, that means everything is working, i am just not ovulating. If this tablet doesn’t work that means we need to look a little further into things

Provera
Day 1 & Day 2
I noticed i had some cramping and very very hungry haha i just needed to eat.

Day 3, 4, 5
Literally no symptoms, Unless you ask my husband then he will say i was very very moody.

Finished Provera
Day 1, 2, 3

So once finishing my 5 days i was very excited to get off.
I literally have had no symptoms, nothing.

Day 4

So this brings me to day 4. (Today is day 4 btw)

I wake up and nothing, I had my morning shower and had some small cramps.
Once i finished in the shower i was like hmm (you know when you just have that feeling like something is happening here and you can normally pin point when your period starts? well this was that moment)

WARNING TMI time.

I went to the toilet again and i wiped i could not believe my eyes. There was the slightest discolour on the toilet paper.
I didn’t want to tell my husband straight away in case i was carrying on and imagining things.
Once i got to work believe me when i said i literally walked in dropped my things and went straight to the bathroom.
I HAD SPOTTING.

Today has been full of cramping, spotting and lower back pain. I am so happpy!!!! All this pain is so worth it.

So tomorrow i am hoping to have my full blown period and if i do it will be CD 118!!

I will update you all in a couple of days 🙂